Last Night

I haven't been taking pictures lately, because well, my camera is a sad story and it's a bit embaressing. Last night my boy was celebrating his bday, albeit a bit belatedly but still, whatever. The party was good, lasted till midnight (but we started at 7, so..) and on the way home we got in a major major argument. Now, our future together is well, not so sure. And ironically enough, today is our anniversary. I hope things will be .. resolved. I now vow to try to be better, stop just doing nothing and watching my life pass me by. I mean, I say I want to be a writer, but do I write? I say I want to be more involved with things that interst me, fashion and animals and culture. But what do I do? Nothing. I say I want to live more health-conscienciously and be better to my body. But there I am, smoking and drinking and eating godknowswhat. I say I want my flat to be a home, but it is messy and I am a mess too. I now will change. They say people never really do though, but they say a lot of things. I will change, I will make a difference, in myself, in my life and perhaps, hopefully, in the world. Last night opened my eyes.

And a little p.s. Matoušku, miluji Tě.)