An ode to heartbreak

There's no feelings left where I am. In a deep dark place where you had sent me. I cannot even bare to look at you. There's nothing there, nothing left. I had loved you, yes, but you had taken that love for granted. You thought you could do what exactly? I will never understand you. How could you? And I could never trust you again. How could you say you love me and then behind my back... I will never look at you the same. I will probably never let anyone get so close ever again. You have broken me in two and I had used to bend over backwards for you. All that is left now is a dry angry laughter. I laugh. I laugh at the irony of it, to think I had always given you everything, anything you have ever wanted. And you trampled upon it. I had spread my dreams under your feet but you barely noticed. It's over now. It has to be. Let me go. I wish you the best, I really do. But, lover lost, we are through.

Pledge

I'm cut. In half.
And a piece missing.
I wish. I had.
Something more.
I need. To feel.
Loved beyond compare.
You still. Deceive.
Reasons I'm here for.
I'm cut. To pieces.
Bleeding inside out.
I hope. That you.
Will make me whole.
I want. To make.
Everything alright.
I can't. Wait.
Forever.

emptiness.

am cold inside where once lay joy
am tired now as none before
have spoken words but none of thy
that hover like a mist of misery.

am worried of the choices chose
repeating inside like old echoes
am hurt in turn to our vowes
forgetting the whats, the whens, the hows.

But none of it matters still.
Because in the end, I'm in love with him...

Lovepoems to no one in particular..

How Much..

How much more

Could I possibly give
When I gave you my heart

You left it there

How much longer

Do you expect me to wait

There is nothing left

Now that it's too late

How much harder

Was I supposed to try

How much better

Were you than I

How much harder

Could I ever fall

Did you ever care or love me?

A little or non at all

How much stronger

Did you expect me to be

How much later

Will this be hurting me

When will you realize

That I am truely gone

How much will it still hurt

Before we move on

Will you even remeber

Will you ever forgive

How much more will I die inside

Though we both still live

Or will you change?

Will you love me forever

How much more can I take?

Or will it be never..

Written by MsVeve June 2009