Truth.

I probably don't need any new shoes. But the things is, when I'm not feeling my best? When I get sad or hurt or worried, I feel like I not only need new shoes but that having new shoes changes the moment. Thus I don't have to be sad/hurt/worried anymore, because there I am thinking about shoes instead and feeling more or less happy. Shopping in general makes me happier and if I had endless resources than that wouldn't be a problem. But since I'm just a student/part-time employee money issues to tend to be severe sometimes. I just can't help it though, I mean sometimes there's just no other way how to calm myself down other than to go and get my mind set on new things. It's like a unbreakable cykle of sin. Sometimes it's like I can't function. I can't even think straight. Like right now? Right now I'm supposed to be studying for Thursday's exam. And what am I doing instead? Looking thru Asos and other favorite sites and thinking about shoes. I must stop I know, but I feel like I can't even tare myself away. So I guess this is how an addict feels? Probably. Or well actually probably a bit worse right? I mean, shoes aren't like say heroin right?? Or are shoes/shoe-shopping just as dangerous?